Seven years ago today I became “DAD” better known today as “Daddy, daddy, daddy”. The very word strikes fear in the strongest of fatherless men world wide, yet I claim it proudly. I am dad hear me …. frankly sometimes its hard to hear myself because I’m the father of two little girls.
Seven short and at the same time long years ago at 2:56 pm my Ayla was born. I honestly can’t remember what it felt like to not be a dad. There is a piece of my brain and all of my heart that has been captured by my littles. I was always afraid that becoming a father would cause the identity of Joseph Cortez to be lost. In reality it was not until I became a dad that my full identity was fully revealed.
I’m not saying that I was incomplete prior to fatherhood just that who I am increased. It’s like God expanded my capacity to understand Him in a new way. The same can be said of when I married my amazing wife. There are certain things that only parents can ever understand and that can only be revealed through marriage.
I now look at the world through a lens I didn’t know existed prior to that magical day. Each and every day on this journey I discover new things about the world and myself. I find new weaknesses and once hidden strengths. My outlook and approach to the social constructs under which the world operates have undergone a transformation in some respects and been reaffirmed in others. I comprehend love to a level I never could have reached with out the precious gift that is fatherhood.
The main lesson I have learned over the past seven years is that no matter how well read I am, how many sides of every social and political issue I research, how much advice I garner, I am incapable of being a great father without the grace and strength of God. On my own I would give in to the temptation of taking the easy way out of difficult situations, of discipline and guarding their hearts. I so try to guard their hearts not to shield them from the world but to teach them to be rooted in the strength of conviction of knowing Gods love as best I can through the completely fallible vessel I am.
The complexity of being a dad in a world focused on Bruce Jenners issues while a Christian holocaust occurs in the Middle East and goes untold is a daunting task. Parenting in a world where we can’t figure out who should use what bathroom anymore and what was once right is now wrong is becoming increasingly difficult as being self guided instead of God guided is the new normal. I shall keep my head laser focused on their hearts and do my best to grow as a father and understand I can only control my part. I must trust that my daughters will become who they are supposed to become. So today I celebrate my daddy hood anniversary with great joy with, great concern for , and most importantly great love for my daughters.